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Last year I decided that puppyplay would be my main focus in the lifestyle. The part of a pup felt more natural with my expression of love and loyalty. As I've mentioned before, I still held onto DD/lg but very loosely. I rarely practiced it and was more into drawing myself in that headspace still than letting it go like I should have. With or without my gear on I felt like a pup in all forms of interaction with my Master. When I greeted Him in the mornings, it was with devotion and excitement. I always imagined myself greeting Him at His feet. When He'd come home from work or a night with the guys, I'd meet Him at the door of His bedroom nude to surprise Him. Hugs became full on tackles with kisses and little licks. Anything less felt like I wasn't be full honest with my body about showing Him my love for Him. Earlier this year Master had set a rule for me that when addressing myself around Him, I would speak in 3rd person writing or speech. There was no 'I' or 'me'. There was only 'Puppy/pup' and 'she'. It made my tummy melt. It felt adorable and embarrassing to be diminished of titles that make me human. Of course to the rest of the world I was still Remi, but between us I was nothing more than a dog. Lately things have been ruff. I've been dealing with depression again and this time I can't seem to shake off this episode. Medicine adjustments aren't working for me. Therapy has been more about managing my emotions and suicidal ideations than anything else at this point, but I'm thankful to have that outlet. But overall this has affected my activity on lifestyle social media. I don't feel an urge to dress up in gear and 'pup out', as I like to say. It feels too much right now and no mater what I do, I don't feel cute or pretty. I've never needed gear to make me feel like a pup anyways, but it definitely enhanced it. Sure, I still was my Master's pup and that's all that matters. But to everyone else I had become a ghost. Getting in the mindset to be kinky has become hard. It's not that I don't enjoy it. It I could set up a scene with someone I'm sure I'd have a blast, but I don't get those opportunities often. Being depressed for me means that things I once enjoyed have become tedious, lack luster, or just don't hold my attention. There's such an issue with pushing myself to do any normal hobby and feeling a sense of enjoyment, because I feel like I'm forcing myself to do it simply out of a need to feel normal. Dom Sub Twink Tumblr GirlPupping out on my own without Master is not the same. And buying toys and gear for me feels like I'm wasting money and simply buying my sorrows away. You ask, 'Why can I not express my feelings and frustrations to you without you worrying that it's going to be the end?' I wish I had an answer, Master. I wish I could give you a clear, cut response that you can fathom and we can work on. But the truth is, I'm not there yet, only at possible ideas. It's not that you can't express your feelings. I want you to. I want to know if your needs are being met and if there's things I need to work on. But it's so hard not to fear the worst; not to think that things are only good or bad, with no in between. I have faulty thinking habits and I'm aware of them when it comes to anxiety, but I've yet to put them in practice with us. I have a strong fear of abandonment and I still can't put my finger on the root of this in our relationship. Perhaps it's because of the part of the large portion of my life that you hold. I feel so fragile despite being mended, but fear of losing anyone is something I can't shake off. And fear of losing you has become one of my biggest fears. It's been addressed in therapy since Nan, but I think it's only getting worse. My worth is determined by the presence of others around me and how they view me. By losing people I feel like I've failed them. The thought of losing you is not terrible in a sense that it would kill me, because I could manage. But when I have something as great as you in my life who brings me happiness, love, and laughter it's hard to imagine just how things would be without you. And I think even that uncertainty scares me. Hi everyone, I don't come on here too often anymore despite being very active in the lifestyle. I still get a decent amount of comments on here monthly, so I guess this page has become a resource page. It probably is due for a revamp on articles. I don't really offer advice too much anymore on any of my online spaces, I really don't feel like I'm knowledgeable enough and I have a history of being somewhat elitist (in my opinion). These days I spend much of my time doing lifestyle art on Instagram. XVideos.com - the best free porn videos on internet, 100% free. 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You can find me on: As of the past year I think I've found a happy equilibrium for my roles. Over the years I've argued with myself whether or not to put my focus on being a little or being a pet. Well I primarily identify as a pet now but my little side meshes with it really well. It turns out I'm a cute baby pup. Who would've guessed?;) I'm beginning to explore a younger age range for myself when it comes to my little side. ABDL items have been calling my attention lately beyond pacis. I have a couple of onesies so far from Onesiesdownunder and Littleforbig. I'm also looking into wearing diapers which is not something I ever imagined I'd be saying. I'll start posting some reviews here in the future and video versions which will be found on Youtube. Take care everyone and see you soon! This post is being a remake of, which screams of overly edgy writing of a teen. I apologize for the condescending nature of it and how poorly written it is. With this I hope to provide a better understanding of the two as seperate entities as well as explain the overlap. For many beginners coming in DD/lg, there is some confusion about the two and whether or not they exist together. I've come across many littles who are afraid to openly identify as a little due to the idea that you must regress (ageplay) to be a little. If you've come here with that misconception, take a deep breath, smile, and rest assured because you'll be happy to hear that this is not true. What is DD/lg? DD/lg, also known as CG/l and Big/little, is a subset of D/s.
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